you were not ready

But they issued the shovel and the rifle and you dug

But to watch you sitting there between the sandbags

But to watch the sand spilling out the bullet holes

But what did they expect

But what did they really think a sheet of metal could prevent

But I sat rolling little ears of pasta off my thumb like helmets

But it was not a table of fallen men

But my hand registered fatigue

But the men in fatigues were tired of sleeping in shifts

But you snuck into town and dialed home until you wrote your fingers

were tired

But the code for Shiraz was down

But all of Shiraz was down

But the sheet lightning above the Ferris wheel of rusted bolts

But I am sure they are alright you wrote Well to reassure yourself

But the wind like an old mouth shaking the unnamed evergreen outside

my window

But what I mean is I'd like very much to talk a bit

Hello